you laughed at my affections while i passed by your direction
i should have known from your walk
it was the end of you
its not that i dont respect your opinion
your quick with lips just rip me apart
sometimes like this i’ve got a big mouth and maybe you can handle shutting it up
a simple contradiction could shake my whole foundation
i’m taking back every step towards you
still failing at everything i do
in the meantime just talking to my shoes
converse with my Converse
at least they hear a word i say
and scrutinize it just as far as they can tell what i’m getting at
you’ve twisted my tongue around my neck for the last time
but parker lewis can’t lose
i’ll spend my life trying to figure this all out byt this is the last song about you
the last song i waste on you

last night i saw a movie
and i thought about many movies ive seen at your house
excuse me if im rude
but id rather that we just strike from the record ones id see again without you
leaning on my shoulder
distracting me from the plotline

where can i go when i want you around
but i cant stand to be around you
“go home”
ill walk myself to you
ill walk myself away from here

“go to hell” is all i thought for seven weeks
but i grew out of that phase looking at these broken photographs of people
looking glossed just like a summer ago

where can i go when i want you around
but i cant stand to be around you
“go home”
ill walk myself to you
ill walk myself away from here

“call me back” im pleading with a cork in my head
it wouldnt be the first time
my pillow has been mistaken

where can i go when i want you around
but i cant stand to be around you
“go home”
ill walk myself to you
ill walk myself away from here

cant stand to be around you
around you, around you
cant stand to be around you
cant stand, i cant stand
to be around you
around you
around you
around you
around you…

She’s shallow like the shoreline during low tide
but my hopes are not quite as high
cant spot her faults but she spotted mine
she left me for herself
considering i would too
go figure, i’m bigger than that
the battles only halfway done
i might look young
but i’m no less defeated
how’s the weather up there?
good God i wish i was tall

this might just be a waste of time
but there’s no one i’d rather waste my time with than all of my best friends
so start the car up, we’ll all take turns but not for the worst
we’re all “hasbeens” and “never-were’s”
and we’re all in the back singing “Roxanne” just watching life pass us by
pass us by
as if we cared, enough to try and catch up
enough to make up for lost time
we’ve been down, e’ve been out, we’ve been hanging ’round
tip our glasses to having no direction
start the van, get me out of this one horse town, waste this night

i dried my eyes, now i crust them with sleep
ill crust them over
she begged me “dont hate me”
she spun me a story
where winning looks like losing
and im winning every time
so thread spools sweetie, get ready
until my silk is sold

growing up
growing up
growing up
yeah
ill myself a new
yeah
ill myself a new

ive dried my eyes, now its “rushmore”
im deep with futures like chicago
glenview never meant a thing to me
she never meant a thing to me
except for putting idealists in a body bag
forget it
ill go out tonight to piss on her doorstep
and listen to the misfits “where eagles dare” to swallow whole

up
growing up
growing up

go!

whoa-oh-oh
i guess im my own better half
whoa-oh-oh
i guess im my own better half
whoa, oh
i guess im on my own
yeah, yeah
i guess im on my own
yeah
i guess im on my own
yeah, yeah, yeah
i guess im on my own

Walking off that stage tonight
I know what you’re thinking
“He stands alone because he’s high on himself”
But if you only knew..

I was terrified and would you mind if I
sat next to you and watched you smile
So many kids but I only see you
And I don’t think you notice me
Well I’ve seen your boyfriend
and I don’t think he treats you right
But that’s none of my business is it?

I’m not the way you think I am, no
I’m not the way you think I am, no

The only girl who ever gave me the time
was the one who only wanted five minutes of mine
Knocking boots in the back,
How degrading is that?
I decline

I’m too terrified and would you mind if I
sat next to you and watched you smile
So many kids but I only see you
And I don’t think you notice me
Well I’ve seen your boyfriend
and I don’t think he treats you right
But that’s none of my business is it?

I’m not the way you think I am, no
I’m not the way you think I am, no

I’m not the way you think I am, no
I’m not the way you think I am, no
I’m not the way you think I am, no
I’m not the way you think I am, no

I’m not the way you think I am, no
I’m not the way you think I am, no, no

Walking out on the show was walking out on you
And walking out on you was the best thing that i ever did.

Last night i saw my world explode.

Well, im looking out at you obscured by the stand up arcade
And the sound of the descendants.
Your smile reminds me of switchblades and infidelity.

Last night i saw my world explode.

I sat outside my front window…this story’s going somewhere:
“He’s well hung,” and I am hanging up.
Well there’s a song on the radio that says:
“Let’s get this party started.”
So let’s get this party started.

What you do on your own time’s just fine.
My imagination’s much worse, I just never want to know.
What meant the world had folded
like legs and fingers holding onto what escapes me;
what he has: a better kiss that never lasts.

You said, between your smiles and regrets: “Don’t say it’s over.”
Dead and gone, dead and gone, yeah

Calm before the storm set it off, and the sun burnt out tonight.
A reception less than warm set it off, and the sun burnt out to…

This is me standing in the arch of the door
hating that look that’s on your face
that says there’s another fool like me.
There’s one born every minute, there’s one born every minute.

What you do on your own time’s just fine.
My imagination’s much worse, I just never want to know.
What meant the world imploded, inflated then demoted all my oxygen
to product gas and suffocated my last chance.

You said, between your smiles and regrets: “Don’t say it’s over.”
Dead and gone, dead and gone, yeah, woah

Calm before the storm set it off, and the sun burnt out tonight.
A reception less than warm set it off, and the sun burnt out tonight.

Calm before the storm, set it off, set it off, woah

Calm before the storm set it off, and the sun burnt out tonight.
A reception less than warm set it off, and the sun burnt out tonight, yeah…
Woah…yeah…
Sun burnt out tonight
Woah…
The sun burnt out tonight

I served out my detention
and in the end i got an honorable mention
in the movie of my life, starring you
instead of me
when the moonlight, hits your bright eyes i go blind
and maybe next time
i’ll remember not to tell you something stupid like i’ll never leave your side
like the oldest movie i ever saw was the one we wrote together
i said i hate you but i’d never change a thing
i can be your John Cusack
i burnt out
my defensive
now everything i say is taken as offensive